let me..

i write
not exactly for others to read
n
not expecting others to understand
i just want to let it out
because
right now

...

I'm alone

n

...

i miss him damn much

Biarkan aku menangis~~

kadang2kan walopon buah hati ade dpn mate, xsemestinye kite akan hepi slalu..lg dekat lg lah cpt gado....kadang2 saye rase lelaki sgt ego..sentiase nk suro kite dgr ckp die saje..bajet die betol sgtlah..ckp kite lngsung die xnk dgr..pastu bley ak tu..sume die buat bole tp bile pat kite sume xbley..boley ak..alasan bek punye..'awakkan pompuan..kalo jdk apape camne?'bley ak pompuan skang dh up ok..dh sestd ngn laki ok..dh ade yg ade black belt ok!

bley ak?saye penat dh nk gado..dh penat nk nangis sorng2..org npk saye hepi..mmg..mmg saye hepi tp when things like this happen, xde org pon tau..xsemestinye saye xbitau saye xde problem kan..slame ni pon kalo sy nangis bukan ade org tau pon..sbb saye bukan jenis yg ske share2..berhepi2 bia beramai2 tp bersdey2 bialah sye sorng je..sbb saye mmg dr kecik dh sorng2..so, saye dh jdk biase ngn bnde tu..but sometimes bile ade hal ngn naza, saye xtau nk bercrite kat sape,,saye rase saye btol tp die pon rase die btol..so camne? dei keras sye keras..dh jdk keras kuase 2..susah camtu..tp xkn saye je nk mengalah..saye rase btol..saye xrase saye salah!

pompuan mane xjeles kalo ade pompuan laen cal or msg bf die,,saye paham awak jeles,,saye paham kalo awak jeles awak syg saye..saye paham..saye pon camtu..tp bley ak?kite dh 6 tahun! xkan awak xcaye saye?saye tau saye ske buat perangai tp awak tau saye sayang awakkn..awak tau saye ade awak je..awak tau saye xkan carik laenkan..kalo tau nape buat camtu?nape jeles2 camtu..jeles smp nk mara smp nk gado..die kawan saye ok! kawan!sahabat!not more than tat..

'awak tau?saye ingt awklah yg paling paham saye..tp rite now npk mcm awaklah yg plg xpaham saye.sedey tau..ble kite rase org yg plg dekat ngn kite tetibe buat kite nangis camni..awak tau org sayang awakkan..n org pon tau awak sayang org..tp syang pon ade batasnye..xsume hal org awak bley msk campor.,,camane hal awak ngn kawan2 awak org xpenah campor..camtulah org xpect dr awak..'

bukan nk layan perasaan..tp nilah lagu sesuai tok saye layan mlm ni..bkan sbb lirik die..tp suare penyanyi die n melody die yg sgt ngam ngn mood saye skang..

the liriks sile abaikan para yg last skli tu..mtk dijauhkan!Amin

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prince comot

nothing much
just wanna show the cupcakes


even the celebration was not as planned
it's still fun
as long as he's there

Happy Birthday Awak
Org Sayang Awak
Sorry termajok lelebey plak
hehehe

lamenye>>>>

lamenye saye x update blog
lame ke?
last friday kot
xde lah lame sgt

hahaha
xde pe nk tulis kot
ke
xde mood nk tulis kot
ke
xde perasaan nk tulis kot
ke
ape ape jelah

rasekan awak!!!

okeyh..relax..org kate xbek nk mara2..nti cpt tue..saye xnklah tue disebbkan org yg xsedr diuntung tukan..nti die mude..saye tue..pastu nti die carik laen..pastu nti saye plak yg crik len..carik lg melatop dr awak.bia padan muke awak!huh..br puas ati saye!

tgk..saye dh mara lg..sume awak punye pasal ah ni..

ok..chill lg malyanah..

tarik nafas pnjg2..ok

org kate, kalo kite mara ngn pasangn kite,,kite ingt bende yg bek2 je psal die..bende2 yg sweet2 or comel2 yg die penah buat ke..so tat mara tu akan hilang

so, saye akan cube mengaplikasikan petue ini..

errr..ape eh..ha..ingat dh

err..xingat blk dh..

err...

err..

ok

saye give up..

di saat saye sgt mara,,saye dh tak bole nk ingat dh bnde2 chumel yg awak penah buat..

sori ye..percubaan saye gagal..

dan saye masih lg mara kat awak..

masih lg xnk angkat cal awak..

masih lg xnk reply msg awak..

tp saye akan berusehe lg..

hopefully berjaye sblm awak smp JB esok..

or

bende pertme yg akan saye buat mase saye jumpe awak is..

saye akan piat telinge awak kuat2!!!

and

saye akan bengkokkan ibu jari awak yg tak bole bengkok tu!!

padan muke!!

huh

ni yg rase nk mara ni....

11.20pm
20 minutes to naza's birthday

And
he's not in JB!

And
I'm so pissed off

And
I'm so wanna jentik telinge die

And
apehal bday awk esok mlm ni awak bley xde plak ni..
haih..ni yg nk mengamok ni!!

xpe2
ade ubi ade batas..
hopefully sleepover yg nat plan 13/14 june ni menjadi
at tat time..
bubbye!
jgn msg org!
jgn cal org !
jgn bg org prezent pon!
org tanak!

arghhh
tertekannyerrrrr
rase mcm nk bakar je cupcakes tu..
bia hangus..
hangus mcm muke awak!!!!

arghhhhh
saye tertekan....

ape-pe aje

smlm saye terbgn pg and tertgk ape-ape aje which d topic is First DAte..
hehe..agak menarik bunyinye..n bermcm2 lah org call menceritekan tntg first date mereke which ade yg klaka n ade yg buruk bunyinye,,hehe..ade lah satu mamat ni..die knal tis gurl dr wrong number tau..so dh wrong number troslah men rightkan number..biase ah tu kan..gaye lame..buat2 salah number,,;p pastu derang pon janjilah nk jumpe kat pandan indah,kat kdai mkn..n mamat ni kate die pkai sweater ceklat n tis gurl kate die pkai baju merah.. smpi kat situ,,mamat ni pon ternpklah ade satu awek tu pkai baju merah n ngah dok sesorng..die ngn gentlenye pegilah mengapproach tat gurl..

'hye awak' kate mamat tu
tat gurl xreply pon dan membuat muke cam pelik
'xknal ke?saye syafiq..kitekan jnji nk jumpe kat sini?' mamat tu berkate lg
'erkk? ade eh?kate si tat gurl tu

sedang2 mereke mengkonfiuskan diri, mamat ni dpt 1 cal dr tat gurl yg suppose blind date die tu..rupe2nye tat gurl tak pat dtg..punyelah malu mamat ni n die pon ngn gentlenye nk blah ah..sbb dh slah orgkan..tetibe gurl yg baju merah tu kate

'xpelah awak..mehlah duduk mkn ngn saye skali..kawan saye pon xdpt dtg'

Dan bermulelah perkenalan mereke sehingge skarang gurl baju merah tu dh jdk awek kepade si budak syafiq ni..hehe..dr wrong number kepade wrong person smplah dh jdk gurlfren dh pon..tulah org kate..kalo dh jodoh xke mane,,hehe..itulah saje cerite dongeng pade hari ini

sekian

vote for....

10 reasons why u have to choose KRIS ALLEN as ur idol

one
good looking guy
two
talented
three
cute
four
incredible
five
simon like him
six
creative in picking song
seven
he's younger than adam(Kris, 23 n Adam, 26)
eigth
not gay
nine
he sing 'heartless' so so sedap
ten
he deserve the spotlight

so, vote for KRIS ALLEN!!

+_+ yesterday +_+

even yesterday is not really my lucky day
I'm still glad
and
happy
laughing
smiling
gosiping

It's been long since the last time we hangout
but
It's still fun
even there's so much things happen between us

A friend is still a friend

>>>Luck<<<

MAy tomorrow be my lucky day
*crossin fingers*

ending of AF7

Ok..So tonite is the last concert of AF7 and guess what?? Awok xmenang.. Awok 2nd, Akim 3rd, Yazid 4th and Isma 5th and the winner is Hafiz.. mmg sye expect Hafiz akan menang sbb pengundi die sgt rmai and die mmg berbakat pon.. But the point is, saye cam xnpk die sbg winner or sbg seorng yg akan jadik artis.. Bak kate Adlin, Hafiz macam duta budak2 kecik.. haha.. mmg pon.. tp oklah.. xde ah buruk sgt kalo die mngkan.. n mmg die dh menang pon..hahaha.. maybe die kene tukar jdk macho ckit kot..


Saye takde ah kecewa ke hape ke.. But agak terkezut sbb dgn muke yg ala2 hensem,,, suare pon sedap ckit dr Dafi, penoh dgn sense of lawak, Awok xmenang.. Ye ah kan.. rakyat MAlaysia ni kan pilih ikot yg hensem, yg ske buat lawak,, yg muke ala2 bley jual walopon bakat xde ah maha hebat pon.. maybe, MAlaysian dh celik kot..hehe

Dlm byk2 performance, yg mendtgkan kesan pade saye is performance Akim lagu I'm Yours ngn performance Hafiz lagu I believe I can fly. Sbb one thing, both is my fav songs and 2nd thing derang nyanyi sgt best bley ak,, Lagu I'm yours tu sgt sgt sedap tat nite.. Dgn suare Akim yg serak2 basah,, senyum die yg comel2 ckit and mood yg santai2 just made the song more meaningful..rasenye saye lbey prefer Akim kot dr Awok tu.. And lagu I believe I can fly tu lighting seyes lawa gile..

And that's it.. Hafiz dh mng.. AF dh abes.. so my saturday nite will be free n bapa saye xler bising sbb die kene tgk tv kat dapo..haha..Sowi abah..

And ok.. one more good news..

Today's match.. man U vs Arsenal.. Even draw pon.. man u dh mengkonfemkan diri mng EPL season ni.. so, special words to ANGAH(u know who u are), jgn terjun tingkap ok..next season cobe lg.. hahaha.. n jgn lupe bet kite tok UEFA

glory glory man united!!!

INspired By

Behind Every Man




Stand A Woman


angkat bakul sudey~~

=)

.+.+.+Happy Birthday Dear Nadeya+.+.+.

It's

16th May 2009

So


Dearest

Nadia ADzianti Binti Che ABu BAkar

May God Bless You
And
MAy HappinesS be urs
Always and Forever
Jgn sedey2 ok


U always
=)

cupcakes~~

Finally
jumpe jugak org yg buat cupcakes kat jb
siap ade design Manchester United lg
surely, naza will love me more..
hehe
*wink

...:::Anger:::...

Sometimes people tend to just easily get mad and angry..I don't know..maybe they are tired, stress or emotionally unstable or tgh datang period..hehe..but whatever it is, I just kind of respect for those who can really control themselves even when things got really messed up. It's not easy you know, to control ourselves and to stay cool especially when the situation really need you to stay calm. Because anger comes naturally, spontaneously without we even noticed. We can only feel the adrenaline rushing and the heart beats got faster than usual.

At that point, there's one thing that we really want..to shout out loud,, to yell to the people that made us mad,, but in the end.. only tears that comes out..

But one good informations about anger that I found is that, it is a normal and mature emotion for human being and even for animal to get mad. It's just the way we manage it and deal with it..

So, I'm normal..
And I'm not mad anymore.. =)

gile arr..

3 novels
10 stories
8 posts
less than a week

pencapaian yg hebat
hiiiiiii

I'm glad..

I don't know how
I don't know why
I don't know when
It just happen
and I'm glad

happy mother's day!

Better late than never ayte

So

Mak

happy mother's day

I know I'm not the best girl u could ask

but

I know U are the coolest mother in the world
and
that make me the coolest daughter in the world

I love you
=)

losing grip*

Kenape ekk manusie ade sifat negative? is it natural to have bad feelings, negative feelings or is it we who encourage the feelings to become negative? I'am not talking about others,,but I'am talking about myself..I don't know..lately my negative feelings towards others is likely to be stronger than my positive feelings..I am afraid this feelings will ruin and destroy my relationship with everyone..everyone including my bestest friend, my closest friend,,my oldtime friends,,my 4years friends and even my boyfriend..I don't know how to describe the feelings but what I'm sure is that everytime the feelings came near me, I tend to welcoming it,,not even bother to avoid it,,not even bother to think of the effects..not even bother to think of the consequences.. And the worst thing is that,, I'm not regretting it..at all..ermm..not at all..a lil regret maybe..but the regret itself doesn't do any good..I tend to shut myself from people..shut myself from my friends..hoping that all the bad feelings, all the bad things will faded away..but I know this is not the solution..

I really hope I'm getting back my style,,my rhythm,,my life,,and I know there's only one way to avoid the negative feelings..

'kembali kepade yg SATU'

God, help me out of this..give me back the real me,,the positive me,,the cheerful me,,the cool me..please..don't let me losing my grip..=(

kude laut~~

kude laut..

binatang yg tetibe sgt menjadi bualan di mulut saye & kawan2 sye d utm sejak 4 tahun lepas..ok..kisah kude laut stat cenggini ye..

Pade 1 hari yg gelap (sebab dh mlm..hehe), kami iaitu pasukan kude laut (pasukan tu en azaruddin yg bg ye), sedang mkn d tgh2 padang d dataran bandaraye menikmati cocok2 yg sgt sy ketagih sejak dr dolu2 kale..sedang kami mkn2,,tetibe myra dgn smngatnyer,,korang2,,aku ade 1 teka teki..die menggerakkan jari telunjuk die kedepan1 (ala2 cacing ngah jalan), pastu die tnye,,ni ape,,kitorng pon bntai ah..cacing..cacing krawit..ulat bulu..die kate salah..ni kude laut..pastu die gerak2kan 5 jari die cam cacing td tu..pastu die tnye..ni plak ape..kitorng pon bantai lg..tapak sulaiman??salah!ermm..obor2??salah!ermm..tetibe.."aku tau aku tau"..LIME kude laut!!haaaaa..btol!!haha..& 1 week after kejadian tersebut,,kami still lg buat sign 5 kude laut tu smp match futsal kat fac pon kami letak team kami team kude laut n name tu lekat smp skang..

mal
mas
arfa
myra
deqsu
shena
yasmin

ni lah 7 kude laut skk!!

=)

Selepas 4 tahun bersame2 bergelak ketawe, bersame2 menclbrate bday shena, myra n min (sbb yg len nye bday ngah cuti sem), bersame2 berbuke pose, bersame2 menganjeng org,,kude laut terpakse berpisah juge..mcm2 dh kami2 lalui bersame..cite sedey,,cite gembire,,cite stress,,cite break up,,cite skandal..sume pon ade,,sume pon share n if x share pon sume org pon tau cite yg same..
Biaselah..suami isteri pon ley bergado inikan pule kami bertujuh yg xde sbrang pertalian pon.. n until at the final semester ni pon..still lg ade terkucil sane sini..but despite cite2 kurang enak tuh,kude laut still lg bersame,,bersame dgn rapatnyer,,bersame dgn utuhnye,,
dan tell u the truth,,saye snanyer sgt windu nk bergelak ketwe kuat2 dgn mereke,,sbb dgn mereke je saye boley ketawe kuat2..n saye snanyer sgt2 windu kat mereke..walopon br 3 ari sy xjumpe mereke..tulah org kate..kalo kite dh ilang org tu br kite rase..tp saye harap saye xkan ilang kude laut saye..saye harap relationship kude laut still utuh smp ble2..n kepade kude laut2 sekalin..aritu aku xsempat nk buat speech sedey kat korng..so if korang bace post ni..
" aku nk mtk maap dr ujung rbt smp ujung kaki..if aku tersilap kate kat korang,,if aku terambil harte korng or if ade perangai aku yg menyaketkan mate n ati korang,,aku harap frenship kite kekal smp bile2 dan aku harap korang berjaye ngn ape2 pon yg korang buat..aku akan stay di jb smp bile2,,so if anything,,do let me know..k...aku syg korang sgt2..sorry n thankx 4 everything!!"

aigooo >_<

Day 1
7 may 2009
spend time with nadeya..
metrojaya sales,koteraye,cs,kg.mlayu
nyte: doing nothing except facebooking! (end up with uploading bunch of pixx)

Day 2
8 may 2009
Dating with my prince
jusco bukit indah (end up with two piece of crocs,,1 for me n 1 for him..;p)
nyte: doing nothing again (end up with creating a blog..duhh~~~)

Day 3
9 may 2009
lunch at kotaraya with my parents
nyte: doing nothing again (end up updating blog~)

huh..sejak ble saye jdk blogger nie ekk??cam pelik je..malyana..blog..malyana..blog..cam kureng sesuai je..whateverlah,,mak kate "sukati kolah ko nk dok dpn laptop bp lame asalkan ko x g ukur jalan"..haha..ok..so,,survey2 peluang pkerjaan (dh jdk pengnggurkan kene ah rajin ckit), facebooking, solitaring, n now,,blogging..itulah hobby baru saye..yeaahhhhhh~~~

please go away

silence
please go away
u make me wanna run
u make me wanna cry

=(

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